Mission Trips:The Good and The Bad II
Okay so I am sorry you guys but i am so long winded that this post has to be a 2 part episode. I called this the good and the bad but I only alked about the good. I wanted to tell you all about how I learned from the bad too but I just couldn't stop talking about those sweet kids.
Better stop myself or else I will never stay on topic.
I went on this trip with a group of college kids. I was the youngest one but by a unamimous vote I was the most mature. The group I went with was definitly some very dedicate crazy about Jesus christians, howvever they still tend to focus on butts and fart jokes. So anyway this trip was not the serious, moving experince I expected. Have you ever had someone say to you, the experince will change and it doesn't? You feel like a failure, you start asking yourself "What did I do wrong?" Oh don't get me wrong there was some defintitly some amazing moments, for instance the children (better be careful not to get carried away) and our bus driver. Our bus drivers name was Aaron (which was funny to us because we had 2 Aarons and a Darrin on our trip with us.) He immediatly took us by opening the bus doors and saying you can not get on this bus to our leader. She looked at him and looked at us and just as she was about to question and explain he took her luggage from her hand and told her it was his job to carry on the luggage. He was funny and he had an amazing voice that sang us a wonderful gospel song. He told us that he was born in the Dream center back when it was Queen Of Angels hospital. Than the Dream center also nchanged his life around, keeping him of the streets and out of gangs. He defintly showed me about divine appointments.
Anyway, man I like to talk lol, this trip was still a little disappointing. Sure I so some amazing things, and I hate to whine but I felt like I could have helped more people. I think the biggest problem was the focus of our group, we focuses on fun. How fast can we ride down a hill or pranks on one anothers cars. Heck our dvd of the trip has like ten clips of the other van going tdown this stupid hill lol. I understand having fun, I am not a ninny but I wonder what it would have been like if instead we squeazed some extra moments of helping people in schedule. Why did we stop when the clock said to? We could have skipped Hollywood and gone on a mission or something. Man I don't want to sound like a whiner but I feel like I disappoited God. He gave me the oppurtunites and I failed to see them. I remeber that one guys I talked to was so drunk that it scared me, and was so naive that it took me a second to figure it out. I mean what if I had sepnt more time as a group helping people maybe we could have helped him instead of me just leaing becuase I was so freaked out.
I don't know guys, now I need some advice. I am a Jesus Freak and all i have ever wanted is to serve God. Did I let him down? Was there something I could have and should have done differently? Did I miss a Divine Appointment?
I am Just looking for some direction, please help.
Sincerly, your fellow sinner,
Jessica
Better stop myself or else I will never stay on topic.
I went on this trip with a group of college kids. I was the youngest one but by a unamimous vote I was the most mature. The group I went with was definitly some very dedicate crazy about Jesus christians, howvever they still tend to focus on butts and fart jokes. So anyway this trip was not the serious, moving experince I expected. Have you ever had someone say to you, the experince will change and it doesn't? You feel like a failure, you start asking yourself "What did I do wrong?" Oh don't get me wrong there was some defintitly some amazing moments, for instance the children (better be careful not to get carried away) and our bus driver. Our bus drivers name was Aaron (which was funny to us because we had 2 Aarons and a Darrin on our trip with us.) He immediatly took us by opening the bus doors and saying you can not get on this bus to our leader. She looked at him and looked at us and just as she was about to question and explain he took her luggage from her hand and told her it was his job to carry on the luggage. He was funny and he had an amazing voice that sang us a wonderful gospel song. He told us that he was born in the Dream center back when it was Queen Of Angels hospital. Than the Dream center also nchanged his life around, keeping him of the streets and out of gangs. He defintly showed me about divine appointments.
Anyway, man I like to talk lol, this trip was still a little disappointing. Sure I so some amazing things, and I hate to whine but I felt like I could have helped more people. I think the biggest problem was the focus of our group, we focuses on fun. How fast can we ride down a hill or pranks on one anothers cars. Heck our dvd of the trip has like ten clips of the other van going tdown this stupid hill lol. I understand having fun, I am not a ninny but I wonder what it would have been like if instead we squeazed some extra moments of helping people in schedule. Why did we stop when the clock said to? We could have skipped Hollywood and gone on a mission or something. Man I don't want to sound like a whiner but I feel like I disappoited God. He gave me the oppurtunites and I failed to see them. I remeber that one guys I talked to was so drunk that it scared me, and was so naive that it took me a second to figure it out. I mean what if I had sepnt more time as a group helping people maybe we could have helped him instead of me just leaing becuase I was so freaked out.
I don't know guys, now I need some advice. I am a Jesus Freak and all i have ever wanted is to serve God. Did I let him down? Was there something I could have and should have done differently? Did I miss a Divine Appointment?
I am Just looking for some direction, please help.
Sincerly, your fellow sinner,
Jessica
posted by Jessica | 1:07 PM
6 Comments:
Hey sister, I'm totally trackin what you're sayin. There's many times when I look back and wonder where my head was at during an opportunity. I'm not going to tell you whether your trip sounded like it was a failure or not, that's between you and the Lord. But I will say that we should never be satisfied with anything we do. Looking back is only helpful if it convicts you of a change you need to make or a goal you need to focus more on.
Keep fighting the good fight!
~Grace and peace be with you~
Thabk You Curtis,
I appreciate the encouragemeant from a fellow brother. I was thinking earlier that even if it was a bad trip, it teaches me too be on the look out for the divine appointments that God sets up and to never settle for less than who I am.
Thanks Again and God Bless!
Hey, that was really good and heart-felt. I feel a little ashamed now cause all I write in my blog is funny-ish stuff. thanks for being the mature one and writing what really needs to be written. I'm looking forward to reading more from your blog!
Your sister in Christ,
Johanna
Thx Sis! I just write from my heart. Sometimes it is funny and sometimes not lol.
Thanks for comment!
Yay! Thanks for being my first commentee! Lol. That just made my day. :) Hopefully, I'll be cranking out another good, long post here, soon. It was good to hear from you!
Latah!
~Curtis~
No problem curtis keep up the good work!
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