Life and Who I am

Do you ever get a point where you just forget who you are? Where one day you feel like everything in your life just fits right, you know exactly who you want to be; than the next you don’t even remember who you are or what it was that you stood for? You can’t pin point exactly what it was that messed you but one day you are different. It really takes the closests people to you to make you realize who you had become, but it is the getting back that is the hard part. The people and temptations that held on so hard to you before are always there, encouraging you to make the wrong choice. You struggle and you try so hard, but than you realize something,
There is absolutely nothing you can do.
You don’t have enough strength.
You are too weak.
There is only one thing that can help us, one thing that is bigger than us, stronger than us. His name is God and he is here to help us. He is here to make everything better, fix all of these wrongs, fight off all of these temptations.
You realize this but instead of feeling weak or inferior; you are filled with this wonderful sense of relief. This sense that finally everything is going to be right. You can relax and not have to try so hard.
The best part is the people that you disappointed, the ones that were hurt the most when you lost who you were, are still there. They never gave up on you. That’s how you know they love you, That’s how you know how precious you really are to them.
Welcome Home, Jessica.

Easter

One man, one cross, one Sunday, one cave? Why are these so significant? Why are these objects so important and why are they tied into such a blessed event? Easter is a time that gets us all thinking about eggs and candy, but there is something much more important about this day. This is that story.

Jesus was a man, but he was more than that, he was the Son of God, a savior for his people. He was also perfect, the only human born completely without sin who chose to take the punishment. What punishment is that? Death, the ultimate punishment for anyone who sins. For the penalty of sin is death. Jesus was taken and nailed to a cross, jeered at, and made to wear a crown of thorns. Jesus died, leaving all of his followers behind stunned that they had lost their only hope. So why did he do it? If he was the Son of God why did he choose to die such a torturous death? He did it so that you can have life. For the penalty of sin is death, but through him you can have life. Jesus who was with out sin died so that through him you can have life, eternal life with him in heaven. But the news gets better, he rose again, he rolled the stone away from his tomb and walked right out. He didn’t just die, he conquered death. This is why we celebrate Easter, we celebrate his beautiful gift and celebrate that he rose from the dead. That is the real reason for Easter.
When he died, he replaced your punishment for sin to give you the gift of life; he is waiting for you to take it. All you have to do is ask, ask him into your heart and he will give you life. A life that is better than you can ever imagine. It only takes one simple step, prayer. Pray and ask God into your heart. It is not heart and you don’t have to have all the right words. Just tell him what is in your heart.

Happy Easter Everyone- Jessica

God is Good

I am so Sorry I have been neglecting you all. Life has been so crazy for so many reasons but the number one reason is that I was in the process of a fantastic move. God is so good you guys. My family and I have been praying for a house by the beach for so long and we have finally been blessed with one, completely by accident. Here is the story.
When my family and I were moving out of my childhood home about 3 years ago, we tried to get to the beach, but every opportunity seemed to close down, every door we thought we were supposed to go through was shut in our faces. We ended up in a small Christian town that we all fell in love with. We never thought we would leave. Our neighbors were nice, the people were nice, and we finally felt free to be who we are and not be judged, we could be Christians. But than we got a notice that the owners were selling the house we were in and had to move out of our house. We ended up moving into a way too small temporary rental. Half way through the school year, we had the chance to move, but decided that it was too complicated to move now, God had other ideas. Less than a month later we get another notice. Okay, no big deal, we figured we were staying in our town. But than I got this feeling. This feeling of discontentment, a feeling that I should tell my parents it was time to leave. I fought with this feeling, doubted my initial reaction that it was from God. But I finally got the courage to tell my parents. They listened and thought about it, and realized it was true, we no longer felt that connection we originally felt. Dad began looking at the beach again, and what do you know, we found it. Our house. But I am getting ahead of myself again lol. Mom was totally against the idea, I mean there was no way we could pull my sister out of school and up and move to a different state. But the house was to amazing the pass up. We could no longer ignore the feeling God was giving us. He wants us here and we may not know why yet, but we will be here until we find out.
Your sister in Christ,
Jessica

Remember

He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags.




You talk trash about your 'buddies' that aren't with you.

He knows he may not see some of his buddies again.




You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls.

He patrols the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists.








You complain about how hot it is.

He wears his heavy gear, not daring to take off his helmet to wipe his brow.






You go out to lunch, and complain because the restaurant got your order wrong.

He doesn't get to eat today.





Your maid makes your bed and washes your clothes.

He wears the same things for weeks, but makes sure his weapons are clean.








You go to the mall and get your hair redone.

He doesn't have time to brush his teeth today.







You're angry because your class ran 5 minutes over.

He's told he will be held over an extra 2 months.







You call your girlfriend and set a date for tonight.

He waits for the mail to see if there is a letter from home.




You hug and kiss your girlfriend, like you do everyday.

He holds his letter close and smells his love's perfume.





You roll your eyes as a baby cries.

He gets a letter with pictures of his new child, and wonders if they'll ever meet.








You criticize your government, and say that war never solves anything.

He sees the innocent tortured and killed by their own people and remembers why he is fighting.








You hear the jokes about the war, and make fun of men like him.

He hears the gunfire, bombs and screams of the wounded.







You see only what the media wants you to see.

He sees the broken bodies lying around him.






You are asked to go to the store by your parents. You don't.

He does exactly what he is told even if it puts his life in danger.







You stay at home and watch TV.

He takes whatever time he is given to call, write home, sleep, and eat.







You crawl into your soft bed, with down pillows, and get comfortable.

He tries to sleep but gets woken by mortars and helicopters all night long.








If you support your troops, send this to 7 people.

If you don't support your troops well, then don't send this out. You won't die in 7 days, your love life won't be affected, and you won't have the worst day ever.

You don't have to email this. It's not like you know the men and women that are dying to preserve your rights.







REMEMBER our Troops, and do not forget them LATER






Lest we forget -







KEEP THE CHAIN GOING



















God Bless Our Troop.
Your Sister In Christ,
Jessica

Battle Cry!! oh and my Birthday lol

Okay so I was supposed to write to you all yesterday but too be honest I was having way too much fun and never had time. Please Forgive Me!! Yesterday we went to Party City and Decked ourselves out with Marti Gras Beads and masks. I had the coolest beads, one of them (My favorite) had a purple smiley head that was wearing a crown. When you squeezed it squeaked and blew what was supposed to be like those party favors that when you blow them they roll out flat, if that makes any sense lol. Like this except red like a tongue.

I also had one with masks, a feather boa, and a beaded green, purple, and gold crown. We all dressed up, in beads, funny bobbers, and my sister wore this awesome multi colored eyelashes lol. We actually wore this stuff out to the Movie, we saw National Treasure two, which was SO good. I am so curious about page 47. We ate shrimp and watched Game plan, also very cute. And we had blizzards from Dairy Queen, it was very fun!! So anyway it was a good day and my family made me feel wonderful and loved, definitely my best birthday ever.

On a second note, I made a Battle Cry page which I hope you will all check out. http://www.battlecry.com/battleplan.php?username=HisWords. Battle cry is a great site for teenagers who want to do the Myspace thing but who are not allowed or want something that reflects them. It is full of teenagers just like you and me who have a passion for Christ. If you have ever heard of the Acquire the Fire events, the person who started battle cry runs it too. I would encourage all of you to start your own Battle Cry accounts at www.battlecry.com eventually I will have an ad banner on this page, but honestly, I haven't figured out how to do that yet lol.
Anyway, check it out, make your own, and have an awesome day!!

2 hours and 48 minutes, 46, 45, 44...

This is the official birthday count down!! That right, in less than 3 hours I will be 18, of course I will be asleep when that happens, but still! Tomorrow we are going to go see National Treasure 2, which I have not seen yet but LOVED the first one!! Than we are going to dine on seafood because tomorrow is Fat Tuesday, a Marti Gras celebration!! Eventually we will make it to the beach, but that may be be put off for a couple weeks. I am sure you can't tell but I am very excited!! I really don't have anything to write but I wanted to share with my Bros and Sisses my excitement for my birthday!! I have never been 18 before any advice? lol I get to vote in the election this year, any other first timers for that too? Anyway I wanted to share that with you all, I am sure I will write again tomorrow to scream about being 18, but I had to give this update because I had been giving you guys a countdown lol.
Okay I am going now lol!!
Love you all!!
Your Big Sis,
Jessica
Oh by the way I found three new songs I LOVE!! Have you guys heard the songs Collide or Anticonformity by Krystal Meyers? Also the song One More Round by Barlow Girl is a great inspirational song that keeps you swinging!! I would definitely recommend them!

What if?

What if By Nichole Nordeman
What if you’re right?
And he was just another nice guy
What if you’re right?
What if it’s true?
They say the cross will only make a fool of you
And what if it’s true?

What if he takes his palace in history
With all the prophets and the kings
Who taught us love and came in peace
But then the story ends
What then?

(Chours)
But what if you’re wrong?
What if there’s more?
What if there’s hope you never dreamed of hoping for?
What if you jump?
And just close your eyes?
What if the arms that catch you, catch you by surprise?
What if He’s more than enough?
What if it’s love?

What if you dig, What if you dig
Way down deeper than your simple-minded friends
What if you dig?
What if you find
A thousand more unanswered questions inside
That’s all you find

What if you pick apart the logic
And begin to poke the holes
What if the crown of thorns is no more
Then folklore that must be told and retold

(Chours)

You’ve been running as fast as you can
You’ve been looking for a place you can land so long
But what if you’re wrong?

What if you jump?
And just close your eyes?
What if the arms that catch you, catch you by surprise?
What if He’s more than enough?
What if it’s love?

I love this song because it presents such a great point that I have been thinking about. So what if they are right? What if I am completely off my rocker and Jesus was simply a disillusioned nice guy who was good at magic? What if it was simply a story that had been blown way out of proportion? What if everything I believe in and have invested my life in was a lie?
You know what, if that was true I would die a happy person, because at least when I was hear I had something to believe in, something that keeps my head above water in a world that constantly trying to push it under. I will die and go nowhere, but what will I care, I will be dead and I would have died happy. And those who didn’t believe would feel a few seconds of pride over being right, before they went back to a life that is missing something.
But what if they are wrong? What Jesus is real? What if there is a Heaven and a Hell? Well in that case, they will have lived there whole lives feeling like they were missing a part of them. They will have gone there whole lives with out feeling the overwhelming gift of God that we get to experience everyday. And worst of all, they will have to spend the rest of eternity rejecting it. They will have to spend the rest of Eternity regretting that one big mistake.
So my big question is this, What if its tomorrow? What if Jesus comes for you tomorrow? Are you ready to hop off the boat and test the water?

Your Sister always
Jessica